haha haven been updating for a long time.
too lazy.
lol. xD

jus came back from the funeral of one of my relatives today.
my grandpa's brother's wife.
have been there for the past 2 nights.
hmm quite sad actually.
i think the thing dat we regretted the most is dat we din went to visit her much when she was ill.
not dat we din want to, but we din noe abt it until her condition was too bad.
so the last time we saw her was during cny.

my mum told us dat actually she had alot to say but couldn't find someone to do dat to.
maybe only my mum.
she had 4 daughters, not dat they dun care abt her
but i think it's cos they had their own family too.
she wanted to come our house, but couldn't
cos had to walk quite a long way out to get the bus.
can only come on sat when her daughter was free.
but my mum is not free when she was here.
so whenever she called, they would chat for a very long time.
but now, it's all too late.
we couldn't do dat anymore.

though we are not very close with the relatives there and oso din talk much these few days,
but dunno why i actually missed them.
i remember when we were younger we did spend quite alot of time with 1 of my uncles there.
and both my cousins.
often went out together.
but now, we are like strangers.
i mean my cousins and us.
not the adults.
think it's cos we were not together for a long time
and somemore they are now in their 20s.
as for the other little cousins, we oso dun really noe them.
so yah.
time can really cause relationships to cease.
haiz.

actually i do wish to spend more time with them.
with all of my relatives.
if only we could all live together in one big family like in the past.
haha.
think it's not quite possible in this modern society today.
lol.